About more than half a year ago, when my 30th birthday was approaching, if you had asked me whether I was excited about it, I would have screamed out a resounding NOOO. Quite the opposite, I was freaking out about it, suddenly seeing only things that I had not done (but thought I should have had). All the growth, valuable relationships, wonderful experiences living on 3 continents, and all those accomplishments I had been working so hard to achieve somehow diminished and vanished into invisibility in front of my blinded eyes.